When Silence speaks, louder than a voice

Anny keeping the smile

Life is full of surprises, some are positives while some are challenging, because I have learned in my journey that nothing is negative. Difficult moments are just opportunities to help us take a new direction in life. Sometimes some doors have to be closed to allow new doors to open.

My peoples knows me: I talk, I speak out my mind, I express my feelings, I ask questions a lot of questions…. However, it’s also happens to keep quiet, to not express my other feelings, to not ask questions but to think.

What makes a speaking person keep quiet and think?

I have learned in the past to listen to my soul, my spirit and my environment. During this journey I discovered that one crucial thing that I did not do before was to listen to my body. In fact i realized that my body is the most precious tool that I have, it is complex, but the only constant organism that rigorously serves me on a daily basis and yet was for long not listened to, forgotten and only got very little attention in return.

In the past for various reasons I was more willing to listen to my situations, circumstances and environment rather than paying also attention to what my body was constantly trying to communicate to me. Instead of listening to my body, I fall into the trap of wasting my time listing to assumptions of my mind, criticism of my mind and even lies of my mind, and when I had to consider my body I would simply let my mind dictate my insights.

Then came a moment in my life where my body refused to subject itself to the treatment I was giving it, and decided without noise to claim its comfort, care and attention. I had terrible pains in my stomach, sometimes I could not even stand straight, I had such an unbearable pain during my menstruation; the pain will continue even after my menstruation was finished.

I had a vision and goals I was working hard to achieve, this turned all my attention, energy, time, effort in doing what was making me move toward attaining my goals, in the midst of all my activity I would take a very little time to care for my body, I restarted exercising and taking some time for fun outing. I guess this was not enough.

But this could not solve issues my body had accumulated for years, however the pain I was having was so bad that I was forced to take time out of my busy schedules and activities to go see a doctor, who referred me to a specialist whom I consulted and was put under three months treatment that I am undergoing.

I am glad my body claimed my full attention, care and forced my fast and busy mind to slowdown.

The experience would have been different if I did not go through the process of self-awareness please see my previous post on self-identification (http://annymodi.blogspot.com/2014/05/importance-of-knowing-myself.html )

I have discovered a new way to live my life and define my life, i do  not let any circumstance or situation shape my behavior.

While continuing with my treatment of 90 days (still 62 days to go), my moral is on the top of everything, I am happy and in control of my life.

My journey continues…