Connecting With my Soul !!!

My greatest strength, joy, peace, and love came from my spirituality and my Christianity. A few years ago I hit a very low stage with depression because of challenges I was facing at work, my health wasn’t stable. It went from stomachache, heartburn to BP, until I got operated.

My situation pushed me away from “GOD”, because I felt like my prayers was not answered, I placed myself in a space where I started questioning what spirituality was, why “God” would allow it for me to go through so much pain.

Then in the midst of my “why me, why this, why that”…suddenly my daughter started reminding me about Jesus and her prayer life, Every time I phoned her we will talk about Jesus and his Divine’s guidance, mainly for her, but before I realized, I was the one getting guidance, inspiration, hope, love, and peace.

It was incredible!

I’ve always believed in Jesus and prayed served in the church, but because of multiple deceptions and challenges of life my communion with my God reduced. Now I believe I was connected to my religion, to my church rather than being connected to “God”, but when pain and adversity came I blamed “God”.

Speaking with my daughter about divinity, and praying to God to guide me without really following a set of rules and regulations of a church or religion to dictate my spirituality or my Christianity has helped me as an individual to experience what I call miracle, transformation and rebuild my communion with God.  I am also experiencing the love and forgiveness of God, because in my reflections I came to a space where I forgave myself.

I believe it is important to find that piece of spirituality anywhere we can. Finding the feeling of love that surrounds us and total forgiveness are the greatest gifts I am given from above! Now, there are no more hopeless nights, no tears of loneliness, or isolation. All I have now is hope, love, and peace deep within my soul, enriching every bit of my daily life. I could not ask for more. I am truly happy and at peace with myself. 

I’ve learned to accept myself as I am, even with the challenges I face every day.

Heavenly love gives me the strength to go on, taking one day at a time.

“It gives me inspiration, peace, and harmony within my heart, to feel that my heart, spirit is connected to my soul!!!”

CONNECTING TO MY BODY

doing my morning exercises 

My body became a battleground against my inner being! In this existential ring reigned abuse by either restriction or addiction: a space where whether   I gnawed nails, I hid behind jokes to keep a smile on my face, I wear a makeup to appear beautiful, I try to get lost in my physical and professional hyperactivity, or dwell in improper eating habits, it was always the same thing: my body suffered in one way or another.

      

 To get out of this shell, after a session with my coach coupled to a therapy session that I had, I proposed to myself to understand what in my daily life, stimulates my inner battle and how to stop it. Through therapy action, which was proposed to me and the support of my coach in a serious and active reflection was to accept my body, my thoughts and emotions in order to achieve complete inner harmony. It helped me to direct my action more for “ME” and not against “ME”

Now when I fill disconnected with myself I take up an open dialogue with my body. Before I never really listened to my body and what it wanted say to me; however I expected it to do the same on my behalf. For some weeks now I have been trying to listen to what lies behind my pains, joys, aches and tiredness and the warm excitement. This process takes time, but slowly now I have distinct knowledge and understanding of each feeling of my body and what my body is communicating to me, after all we are bound together for life !!!

With time I have also learned that it’s helpful to remember the simplest things, they really do help me to get out of my heads and back to earth time to time, nowadays when I feel like I am stuck when i get home: 

visiting nature 

ü I walk barefoot

ü Make jokes

ü Run

ü  Sing

ü  Take shower play with kids or

ü  visit nature

Importance of Knowing Myself !!!

Becoming oneself is first beginning to realize who we are, working in a dynamic of questioning how we interpret the world. Because it is when we become aware of how we do it to "create" our suffering, our fear, sadness, self-blame and self-guilt, pain ... then only we can work on stopping creating them.

We will also gradually discover how our "Educators", “Society” and ”culture” have conditioned us by imposing a framework of interpretation of realities around us.

Therefore we will gradually adjust our perception; we will become more and more kind to ourselves, by discovering without a shame that we have needs that are unique to us, understanding - in relaxation - the causes of our behavior and our emotional mental attitudes.