INSPIRING MOMENT OF MY JOURNEY !!!

The 3^rd and the 4^th of April was a renewed pleasure to meet other sisters of POWER UP  program, to discuss, share our experiences, to learn from one another  and more importantly to scrutinize our recent past and evaluate our progress for the past 6 months of the program. Seeing sisters in that venue was a refreshment moment for me, because my past 6 months was enjoyable but also challenging both in professional and personal as the self-discovery journey took me back in a painful past that I tried forgetting for the past 19 years.

Being denied to board my flight from my country and missing my flight made me feel like something was hunting me down to disturb my journey, and this raised a confusing feelings within me, the feeling of fear, guilty, blame… and I felt like giving up on everything, Soon I remembered this same feeling that always comes up whenever I am about to achieve something great for myself, I decided to not give up on “ME”, to pick myself up take responsibility and continue with my journey.

On the first day we were all supposed to make presentation on our progress in the journey for the past 6 months, it was amazing and inspiring to see the growth that sisters have made in their journey, I was also inspired by the progress sisters made in their emotional growth, this motivated me to work on my emotional growth as this is an area that I am struggling with in my life, and I am devoting all my time in my work to avoid dealing with emotional challenges.

Another special and inspiring moment on the 2^nd day was the visit and chat with my coach and other sisters in space that felt so safe, I found myself liberating my heart on some issues that only God could read from heart, this made me realize that I was holding myself a prisoner of my past, I also realize that refusing to deal with my emotions was only delaying my personal growth, from the chat I came clear on my purpose in life, my dream and have decided to work hard I dealing with my emotion for a complete successful future not only professional growth.

On another personal level, the last 6 months have been very challenging. It has not always been easy to strike a clear balance between time devoted to my passion, my work, my activism and quality time to spend with my family and especially my daughter. For the 2^nd time I missed her birthday and I am trying hard to make her forgive me for not being there when she needs me the most; it hurts but I hope one day she will understand and share my dreams.